Monthly Archives: October 2009

Equal Money for All

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Why Self-Forgiveness?

Self Forgiveness Practicality – Why do SELF Forgiveness  Practical Self Forgiveness and Why -Practicality- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGjxHHUv6mE

This is practicality communicating about practical self forgiveness and the reason for self forgiveness in this process each and every single individual human being is and will be experiencing within this world. Now, self forgiveness assists and supports you to release, disengage, let go of manifested mind systems within your human physical body. Understand that mind systems manifest literally within your human physical body through allowed and accepted continued participation in the mind. Now understand that with self forgiveness you release these mind system manifestations within your human physical body because within that you are able to see and realise the nature you have accepted and allowed yourself to be and become. And then in seeing or realising this nature of the mind only here and then are you able to then apply yourself effectively and accordingly to “release yourself” from the allowed and accepted nature of yourself as the mind. So that you’re able to express who you are in every moment of breath. For instance, now, as you have continued participation in this world and.. so you’ve built up and designed your mind consciousness system within you and also as you participate in this world and as you continue to participate in the mind, your thoughts, feelings and emotions literally started manifesting systems that infuse within and as your human physical body which is referred to as the mind consciousness structural resonance system. Now understand that these particular specific systems manifest and are manifested of thoughts, feelings and emotions. Understand and realise that your thoughts, feelings and emotions and reactions you experience as you participate in this world with other human beings; are you showing you in the nature that you have accepted and allowed yourself to become. So when you look at thoughts, your reactions, or feelings and emotions, your behaviours within and amongst this world with other human beings, it is really actually just showing you the nature of the mind as the mind you have actually become as the manifestation of your very deep being, your very nature. Now, self forgiveness releases these system manifestations in your human physical body. For instance, that’s why when you specific line of thoughts, for instance, you tend to observe people in a very critical way. You know, you see a man walking by and you say in your head or in your thought :”Whatever that man is wearing is so absolutely ridiculous like I don’t believe he’s actually walking in the street with those clothes.

Doesn’t he care what anyone thinks of him? How can he wear that, he’s supposed to look like this this this this this that” and you constantly and continuously have that line of thought, what are you actually saying? You’re extensively critical within yourself. That you’re not just able to be yourself in every moment of every day experiencing you but that you have to dress, clothe, behave, speak in such a way to impress other human beings so that human beings can notice you and accept you. And therefore you’ll judge others and criticise others who is merely just comfortable with themselves, expressing themselves, experiencing themselves, because you’re not allowing and accepting that for yourself. Now, if these same thoughts constantly continue such critical thinking or judgement towards other human beings they will literally start manifesting as systems within your human physical body. For instance, specifically self judgement will manifest in your thighs, your stomach, your upper arms and then your calves point and also your bum points. In other words, you will literally start expanding inside yourself because of your self judgement to other which is actually you judging yourself. So, with self forgiveness you’ll release these systems inside these specific points within your human physical body. Now realise that with self forgiveness you’re only releasing the system holds within your human physical body. Now your nature is not yet corrected in any way whatsoever. Now you have to correct your nature through application. And this is done in the following way: As you walk and your mind – you can literally in absolute awareness here as breath and every moment, you’ll actually feel these thoughts wanting to come up. And then you say STOP! No! This is not who I am. Till here no further! I will not accept his! And you stop it, just like that, immediately. But you have to do it like in unexpected ways, so you literally – excuse my words – fuck with the mind. In other words, if such a thought comes up, you know, jump up and down and say to yourself : “No! No! No! No! No! No! No!”. Or you stump your foot on the ground and just say NO! You know, what are people really going to think about you… Because there are already so many damn crazy people in this world, I’m certain they will just give you a nice strange look. And who you know, you may have even assisted those beings for a moment there you shock their systems into awareness of themselves by just go suddenly “NO!”, “STOP!”. Just look how funny that could be you know, for you, for your own individual process. So, you do apply forgiveness to release the system manifestations. Human beings, hear me! Self forgiveness only releases the system manifestation in your human physical body IF applied effectively. Now, your nature is still the same, otherwise you will still go and have to critical judgemental thoughts towards other people which are actually towards yourself. If you do not in that moment ACT and say “NO! Till here no further, this is NOT who I am, I will NOT accept this.” And you do that stop and do it unexpectedly because if you’re going to do it the same time the whole time it’s going to even start becoming a “habitual application which you believe you’re actually saying stop, and till here no further”, but you’re not actually doing it. So find creative ways in every moment to say : “Stop, till here no further, no, I’m not participating, this is not who I am.” And then of course you have to look at self forgiveness for allowing and accepting you to judge yourself and criticise yourself. Really human beings, your thoughts, feelings, emotions, your reactions, behaviours, everything will show you the nature you have accepted and allowed yourself to become. According to that you apply self forgiveness, you release the systems inside your human physical body and then you correct it in application in every moment of breath.

Simple? I’d say so.

Practically Creating The World as Acceptable to ALL

taken from: http://www.desteni.co.za

This is the tested living model where each one will be able to participate as equal and one and experience their participation in bringing forth a new world.

How I apply practical forgiveness in every moment, is in my application of inner awareness in the moment before I act in outer awareness– so in my world I am known as the destroyer — because–once I am certain I am honest with me and what I am aware of my accepted expression and I have corrected me in my self expression, I will reveal the point in the other that requires correction to the point where their world will destruct– normally they are angry — but inevitably they return in forgiveness and understanding –this is how we enlighten the world through revelation of inner awareness as the outer expression of what we are aware of in every moment.

Have a look at how we have created our world – the outer me reflecting the inner me (from which we have hidden, which we have denied through shame of what we have accepted and allowed to manifest in this world as us and thus the reason why we have not actually stood up and have taken responsibility for ourselves: Shame of all that we are actually responsible for, which is the inner me that manifests the outer me as this world within which we experience ourselves) – thus in applying forgiveness in every moment, before acting or speaking, making sure I stand as self awareness as me and correct what is necessary within (which is that which had been the cause through acceptance and allowance by me to manifest what exist within me and my world that is not of who I really am) – our expression both within and as me and without and as the world will change – because it is me and I am responsible for me, both within and without! Only when honesty with me is proven as me, that I am honest with me in every moment as self expression of inner awareness: Am I able to directly ‘point out’ that which exist within others which is not of who they are within and without – I then have the ability to see this within others as me, because I am aware of them as me, I see directly because I see directly as me through self awareness as me as who I am. I live who I am through and as honesty and inner awareness/self awareness and thus I know who others are as me and I will not accept and allow anything less than who they are as me . Because I know how and what their current image and likeness is accepting and allowing within themselves and this world, which is not who they are and thus the world will reflect that which is not who they are – I am responsible for them as me, in every moment I see that I or those around me are accepting and allowing within, reflected in this world, that which is not of who we are. Thus—I take responsibility for the moments in my world I participate in without compromise or justification or making it better than what it really is. I thus trust only my honesty with myself as self corrected and make sure I am self corrected through the actual forgiveness and correction—If I did not do the forgiveness, I will fall – If I did do the forgiveness I will understand that the being did not change immediately, but went through a process of realization as self that in a way excluded me, yet is me as the being is me. My input thus is the catalyst and the Structural Resonance as I am Presence will direct to the point of AHA—I see what I do—This cycle take from days to 2 years per event—so be patient—yet assertive and firm in your standing—Trusting self forgiveness and corrective application in your own world experience—inner to reflect outer. You will not immediately experience a change in your world through forgiveness—only a relieve—a moment of peace —then more conflict as you start to face yourself.

Many will react in many ways as I stand and not accept and allow anything less than who they are as me – through fear of facing self through self honesty because this will mean that the shame of self will have to be faced of that which have been accepted and allowed within and as self to manifest in this world as self and that we’ve never actually stood up within and as self awareness and self honesty in every moment and take responsibility for that which we have accepted and allowed within self and this world as self but instead cowered away in shame: This is but the process to realising honesty with self, which is self honesty through self awareness: Self aware of self, self honesty with self, self responsibility with self – the one and only relationship/agreement that exist within existence as me.

This world as it exist, us how we exist – the inner expression and outer expression have been created through many moments for eons of time. Thus self awareness is required in every moment to no longer continue with the moments of expression we have accepted and allowed that is not of who we are, with forgiveness we correct such moments within ourselves, with self honesty we correct such moments within ourselves, before we express – then we express through and as self awareness.

So= Strange—Forgiveness in full circle

So Step by Step

1. I see life as a moment– a moment is not time , but the point that change my experience in a moment to the point that the moment change again– Between this beginning and end of the moment– I look at my inner reactions and movements– I may have only one breath like in a conversation or many when I am more observer–

A moment not equated to time. I’d describe a moment as follows: Sitting alone within the living room and someone walks in, would be the beginning of the moment. The end of this particular moment would be when either one of you stands up and walks out. Within and during the moment the application of breathing becomes the expression of you as follows: The in breath and out breath and the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath. Within the in breath I observe my inner awareness, during the moment in between the in breath and out breath exist an infinite moment, and within the out breath I express my inner awareness as outer expression: This moment, from the in breath, to the infinite moment in between, to the out breath – occurs with every breath from the beginning to the end of the entire moment as my inner awareness is expressed as me within my outer expression as one. The beginning and the end as one moment with the in breath, the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath and then the out breath. And so you continue throughout the moment into the next moment, the next moment when you’re alone once again within the living room is the following moment after the moment you experienced with the being in the living room with you.

The breath application within and as the moment work as follows: Four (4) counts in breath, four (4) counts infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath and then four (4) counts out breath…and so you continue.

2. In the in breath I observe me inner self– honest to the utmost– I found that if I am not honest–I will be ashamed Later– In the moment before the in breath and the out breath– “Time” stand still and in that infinite moment (I practiced this infinite moment in-between breath by challenging myself to see the essence of the common sense that is best for all in the moment. That means: I look at the practical way each participant in the moment’s life will continue if I don’t interfere and whether I would be grateful at the end of time that someone had the courage to challenge my ego and belief systems when I was lost. And then I express myself as the challenge and interference in the beings life, taking responsibility upon myself to direct the moment to the benefit of the greatest self expression inevitably.) — the outcomes of my participation is measured to obtain maximum impact no matter what–obviously only as words— this same application was applied in the directive principles that changed the dimensions in one moment—This is the point f access that cannot be thought out or come from knowledge and access will only come through much effective honest self reflection and proven application within the infinite moment in between breaths—no more access will be gained than what is proven to be understood as life in the infinite moment with full awareness and understanding. Thus , here no-one give access and it cannot be forced or prayed or meditated upon—it is gained through proven effective self expression and participation in the current allowed reality focusing on stopping what is here to allow that which is life within to step forth to be directed by self as proof as Creator, Created and Creation and the responsibility that goes with this—This is the dominion of Man and why Earth is the “secret” of existence and why all creative Will is directed from earth in existence and why all creation became trapped around earth due to the abuse of self expression. This had to happen to understand oneness and equality and bring forth a model where all will walk as one—either on earth or after death—so—no-one will hold any captive with fear or with knowledge – death is the equalizer where self refuse to go in self forgiveness and correction for all as one.

So from the in breath I observe me, inner self, and in the moment before the in breath and out breath within the infinite moment I observe all participants as me included. And within the observation I see direct where it is necessary to act or speak to direct those as me to self realisation/ self honesty in revealing points that is not of who they are, and within the out breath I express me, inner self, inner awareness of all that surrounds me and I act and speak appropriately where necessary: The expression of me not accepting or allowing anything less that who the participants are as me.

Observe: In the breath alone, you are trapped in consciousness, as the breath alone you are trapped in consciousness. It is in the moment in between the in breath and the out breath that you are free, it is in the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath that you are free. That freedom expands and expounds as we become more specific in our understanding to let go of what we have allowed to be the Illusion we call creation—yet as a training model—the illusion is great and effective — So—doesn’t help to fight or scream or manipulate—this is done —This is the last life for each on earth as consciousness—sadly for those refusing to apply forgiveness—all that will happen is that you will be last to realize your responsibility to yourself as all as one as equal—so—we will be equal to our application

3. Obviously if I found a movement or emotion or feeling of reaction like anger in me because of the other beings participation– I apply forgiveness and do the correction in myself into infinity in the infinite moment between the in breath and the out breath

Self first: This is important. It is first to correct self awareness, inner awareness of self through applying necessary self forgiveness before directly speaking or assisting those that participate in a particular moment in effectively and appropriately directing them as you by not accepting and allowing anything less that who they are as you.

It starts with self: In moments of not accepting and allowing anything less than who I am through breathing application and expression, making sure I stand clear within self honesty and self awareness and self responsibility through breathing application and expression, I won’t accept or allow anything less from who those are around me as me.

Honesty with self first, self responsibility first, before honesty with self within others as self is ‘pointed out’ and revealed in realising self responsibility towards others who are participating in a particular moment. I always assist the being I am opening to self revelation by doing forgiveness allowed with them—very effective with children—example—say to the person or child—repeat after me allowed—I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see that the inner conflict in me is the inner conflict in all other beings on earth as well. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to belief that my conflicts are unique and that I am alone. I understand that I am alone in my inner honesty, because I must prove me to life to be birthed as life from systems—etc—this requires practice and to ask questions will assist.

I imagine the fear—we all have to give up consciousness and what we believed was important—so we all will understand our fears and the fears of others—thus—important to not use the fear of your own giving up by saying it cannot work, because others will not believe—then you trap yourself– Focus on self first and test this out—or you may stand after death having to face the truth about your essence of fear not yet transcended—not a recommended option and there is no judgment on what method you apply—now or after death—either way you only face yourself and in that you and each are alone

Self first – First making absolutely sure within the in breath, the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath and the out breath that I am absolutely completely clear from all that I am not within a particular moment. Inner awareness, self honesty and self responsibility must stand as me as who I am to be able to ‘point out’ and reveal within those that participate within a particular moment that which they are not. Thus I must make sure I stand absolutely clear within me as me of all that I am not, not accepting anything less than who I am, to be able to do the same within those that participate within a particular moment.

4. Obviously– I have through practicing this multiple times focused on my correction with forgiveness– established a level of trust in my corrective action and thus trust that I act as all as one as equal in the moment–In other words–because of my own honesty with self in understanding self correction and oneness in expression and equality in responsibility– I trust me to do what is necessary to assist in revelation and practical example– I cannot save another or fix another–I can only reveal self-deception and only once I have proved that I have corrected self-deception in me. This is proved through dimensional access—no honesty—no direct access—no proof that all as one is who you are—no access—just mind jobs and pictures—just snippets of uncertainty—yet where honesty has been infinitely proven—full access—hearing and seeing just like you and me in 3d—conversations –like dimensions and earth is one will become your reality experience—this is the guide for each on earth—all will see dimensions and communicate dimensions equally – as we do in 3d—the key—self correction and self realization and with effective application—quite possible for anyone any where

Here remember—access is according to the extend of self expression—no- one gain more than what is taken responsibility for as all as one—so no-one can actually harm another—only systems harm systems and death is only the death of systems.

5. Correction of self deception means to find a solution onto infinity in every moment– That seems odd, but look– The I am only exist in the moment and not in the mind or thinking– so The I am of me will show me what to do in the moment if I have proved my honesty to me and proved that I will act in the interest of ultimate oneness and equality — NO MATTER WHAT

6. This means that the answer cannot be planned or prepared–I must be prepared thus aware and in that awareness — self-directed– thus I must trust me that I will not abuse my awareness to get my way or my will, but will do the GREATER will– This is where power is–if one can call this power– Power is greatly misunderstood

Within the expression of self through the out breath – the outer expression of self is unpredictable – self expression is unpredictable as it’s not equated to memory, as it’s not equated to thought, emotions and feelings as a reactive behaviour. Outer self expression as one with inner awareness as self – is unpredictable and it is within and as unpredictability where self trust exist. Yet this unpredictable self expression is where the words spoken together with actions necessary to be taken in the moment is one – and is done within and as equality and oneness for what is best for all as one as equal. Thus, in unpredictable self expression, trust exist from the principle that I will speak and do in this moment what is best for all as one as equal – as each human being represents existence as all as one as equal.

7. Now in the in breath I assessed myself and what I became aware of– in the point in-between I tested me into infinity–In the out breath I participate in trust and let the words flow– no thinking– this is then the I am that speaks–we are all this I am , but this I am never speaks– the mind speaks– this is the calamity of Man—

It is here within and as unpredictable self expression, as the outer expression of inner awareness as self with the out breath – that the I am speaks and expresses as all as one as equal – appropriately, what is best for all as one as equal. Here the I am speak in sound as sound and your words become infinite expansive sound where you see all the various ways your words will flow through existence—this is truly amazing—but impossible for systems or the mind to experience

How do we know it is the I am speaking—the mind is silence—as long as the mind thinks or pictures of something greater exist—the I am will not speak—see the 10 Commitments in Baird Spaldings books – a few adjustments necessary—but the Amalgamation expressed there happens only through honesty and self forgiveness as an inner process that each must do individually and that no-one will be able to do for another—those that wait for another –will experience the fate of the one they wait for—to show that –our example of discipline with self honesty and self forgiveness no matter what the challenge—will manifest—this is certain

See how humanity is being forced to speak out with world events having little or no effect– because they have not yet done this process of self-awareness at an inner level of practicality– thus– great calamity must now manifest–not necessary if we get our asses in gear with revelation in the moment and forgiveness and self correction

The process of self revelation as movement of self, instead of the culminating of effects within the world which we caused through no self awareness, no self responsibility and no self honesty – reaching calamity which will only then cause self revelation and self movement for us.

I have been living like this for years, but to place it in practical words took a while.

Look in this model of practical living — no God is required, no Master is required , no ascension to send your ass to some better place—the best place is self, here– as Self Mastery. No religion is required but honesty with self. No wisdom is required but awareness in the moment. No honey words is required because you are the bee that collect the pollen in awareness in the moment as the moment flower – knowing that honey will be produced from it. This is the food of life.

Practical breathing thus is—constand–practise

4 counts in 4 counts infinite 4 counts out – repeat

No-one will come to prove you but yourself—this is certain and only self will proof self to self—this is equality and oneness in practical expression

enjoy

My perspectives on Youtube Comments – Common Sense research

People who claim they see ghosts and trust that they send them off to a better place and that they understand Wicca.

My perspective: But you are not a dimensional being able to walk amongst the demons within the demon dimension and here, observing who was really presenting themselves to humans as guides/deities – just to survive off their energy – we have an interview with Jack – he explains either demons or white light beings directed people. In self honesty, you don’t see the beings as they are dimensionally who you believe ‘guide’ you. Have you gone to the summer lands or it is only a vision? POINT OF MY VIDEOS

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Experiencing energy from others: Youtube Comment: ‘I can sense your energy even though you’re not close’

My perspective: Energy is created by the mind through polarity friction for the mind to exist and run as programs. Thus what you are experiencing is your own mind consciousness energy as you summon up an opinion about another that takes you into an ‘experience’ of energy – that validates your opinion.

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Youtube Comment: ‘people like you are the followers of Satan and his demonic army’,

My perspective: due to this statement based in hearsay, your entire comment is now invalid, as you have proven yourself to only speak from a place of knowledge you have copied from other people – neither you or them have met satan or his army – thus it is a symbolic statement of your fear – you display – based on the fears of your parents and society. I suggest look at what you comment using basic common sense.

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My perspective on Poverty: I suggest we start by looking at how we justify and support the current money system. To stop the money system as it is we have to look at how we have come to depend on and define our self worth through money – this is the self honest point each human must ask themselves – otherwise ‘being sad’ about these videos is useless. We have to consider how we have all co-created the money system as it is and self direct the way we interact with money – otherwise arguing about these images is just another front while nobody takes self responsibility —

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My perspective on: Angels: Angels were programs created by the white light to keep you distracted from taking actual self direction within self-honesty. Thus they created beautiful visions and feelings you equate to angels. Look at it for yourself in self honesty – why do you think these angels can’t intervene and stop actual world events like murder, war – but only keep your mind in a bubble of nice feelings and pictures – been there – done that.

My perspective on a youtube comment about the ‘Christ experience’ Yes cool how the white light designed angels as mind creations to keep humans like you in a bubble of god consciousness while the world goes to shit – cool stuff.

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Youtube Comment: ‘Of course fallen angels are terribly bothersome and evil and deceptive’ –

My perspective: oh experiencing some honest insight into your own nature, or again making up stories about fallen angels you’ve apparently, maybe witnessed. Suggest not posting stories as I-witness accounts when you know these experiences are based on feelings.

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Ghosts/demons Perspective on a Youtube commenter saying we are more than likely delving into darkness by speaking to the deceased and that we should leave spirit work up to the professionals:

My perspective: ‘More than likely’ – yes your working with assumption. And tell me why don’t the ‘professionals’ do anything to stop spirits apparently lost on the earth plane – why dont they question god about the fact that he justifies leaving spirits until some egotistical human comes along to professionally ‘remove’ them – sounds lime god as man has designed him is spiteful. Look at all your excuses why this is allowed – all justification so humans may appear special.

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Youtube comment saying I did not practice ‘real’ Wicca(in response to my demon possession videos in which I talk about practicing Wicca);

My perspective: but you’re assuming that Wicca is not practiced differently by some people – I copied this Wicca from a friend who went to Wiccan circles who learnt it from books – showing that religion is merely based on supporting your beliefs, your opinions, to make you feel special within your current personality.

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Youtube Comment: people presenting common sense are satans.

 My perspective: so what your saying is people who have a discussion to present common sense are little satans, and that we should rather blissfully continue deluding ourselves into thinking: ‘the ideal of a benevolent all loving mind may be absent from the hearts of many but it does exist’ Yes Satan represents the point where you don’t accept beautiful words anymore and you stand up and face this world and take it apart to stop all deception – the opposite of beautiful gestures that mean nothing.

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Youtube comment about ‘seeing evil in us:

My perspective: Common sense: evil has not been measured to actually exist, it is only a belief you have accepted – thus what does exist here is you creating this world through your desires. When you say to someone: ‘I see evil in you’ – I suggest look at yourself – and you will see that you are reflecting yourself back to you. Your mind though will protect you to not see what you create in this world through your self interest – and mirror what you do so you see it ‘as others being evil’

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My perspective on a comment about enlightenment and religion: I suggest look at enlightenment and religion for yourself using common sense: the only reason why people don’t support themselves here in the physical as the breath in self honesty and self responsibility – is because they are afraid of taking responsibility, and would like to feel special because we’ve come to accept our minds and that we need to give ourselves some special purpose. Enlightenment gives you a nice feeling about yourself and diverts your attention.

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My perspective on: ‘we must stop the polarity of bad by having only happy thoughts’:

And now you play the polarity game which creates energy for all the minds of the world to exist and function. The Polarity balance requires both polarities and that is what is used to keep world systems as world minds effective – create fear of death and people will go to the opposite polarity to try and escape – and then the opposite manifests as war and murder.

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My perspective on a Youtube commenter saying to another: ‘bless you’.

 You want to be special and nobody is falling for it. Saying to someone: ‘bless you’ is like saying I’m turning you into a pumpkin now. You have about as much ability to bless anything, as you have the ability to stop the illusion that apparently by throwing random religious words around – people will experience themselves better. Have you tested your blessing abilities where it actually matters in the world (instead of here on youtube) – and stopped war, murder, rape?

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My perspective on a question asked about ‘how does one know you are controlled by the sex system:

I suggest stop participating in sex and masturbation for a while, to see where and how your conditioned programming plays out – then you will see are you possessed by it – are you able to stop – are pictures and feelings involved. Sex I find is a long process of developing self intimacy and self trust. You stop by focusing on your breath and self forgiveness.

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My perspective on a forum post about: Drinking/Drugs and now I am able to laugh:

I suggest let’s look at the point of for example: only laughing when you’re drinking or using drugs. How does one now take that point of laughing and working with the suppressions/blockages, so that laughing becomes you in expression no matter where or with who we are. What I did when I worked with suppression, expression and suppression of unconditional laughter, is I would randomly during me day, see if I was able to laugh or smile. In a single moment I would stop, focus on me, and see if I am still enough, quiet enough to laugh. From inside of me welled sadness instead. Now I realised by allowing me to go into the point that was at the core of the suppression – that I was hiding the experience of myself which of course was the experience of sadness with regards to: I looked further into me and allowed the point to present itself. I became angry, I became overwhelmed with thoughts of feeling ‘done in’, feeling ‘not heard’, feeling not considered. Now I was able to look at where and how had I participated in the idea and manifested experience of myself on an emotional level – in these ‘experiences’. From the where and how – I was able to see in which situation did my lack of common sense, consideration and no effective self direction – result in the situation as me experiencing myself as being compromised. I looked at how to approach situation from within consideration for myself and others – not just how I want to experience me.

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My perspective on a Youtube comment about the portal being unisex and that she should stop and be a ‘woman’

No she is not a unisex person. If you look at ‘female and male’ expression the only reason they exist is to draw in the opposite sex through subtle manipulations, symbology and Innuendo’s – all of this to create desire and finally to get sex. If you look at our day to day expression – there is no way we need ‘female’ or ‘male’ expression. Sexual expression also does not require of the one to express programmed body behaviour – as what does that actually do for the one expressing themselves? To justify that males have to act male and females have to act female, is to say that one requires trigger behaviours that links in with pictures and desires you have connected to sex –

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My perspective on: a youtube commenter saying: ‘we should stop telling people there is more than conscious thoughts and that he is fully in control of his physical and his thoughts’:

As example: you only experience your conscious mind, the thoughts you see moving and the things you do consciously – where those thoughts come from and why they direct each one differently – you don’t see – this would be looking into the subconscious, then unconscious mind which is how all minds of the world connect. ‘The Physical does things for you’ – again you don’t see because you don’t see within physicality as dimensionality – you’re only aware of us being subject to reactions within physical.

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 My perspective on a Youtube commenter asking about system designs – is mental illness also specific designs?

All system designs are relevant to the design of the world as it is. Also we have found that some ‘physical/mental dysfunctions are due to the physical not being able to handle these systems or disintegrating at an old age from the systems feeding off the physical.

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My perspective on Youtube comment: ‘Energy is sound’

Energy is for the mind consciousness system to exist – it creates energy through us participating in emotions that creates polarity friction. Energy is therefore a mind system and is how we have separated ourselves as a mind program. Energy is not sound. Sound is ‘wholeness’ of substance, one and equal to all parts – when the inside and outside is the same and not changeable or subject to ‘energy.’ Look at it for yourself – energy is limited – it has a beginning and end.

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My perspective on a statement made to me on Youtube about: Money Comment:

Comment: Andrea Rossouw If we look in self honesty at the world problems, we will notice the majority of ways people experience themselves is due to money which has become our point of survival. So if we have an equal money for all system – it will already solve many of the problems. People are suppressed and angry because our existence here is that of survival and from there we accept ourselves as that – survival.

My perspective: yes James, I was talking to people yesterday about how different each person’s experience of themselves will be, if the way we grew up was not watching our parents surviving. This obviously results in the acceptance when growing up, that we to must go into the system and survive – and then we do the same by having children – haha. For example who would I be now, if I existed here without my past experiences being based on survival. Each of us know where we give value too ourselves through how we participate with money. How do you know somebody defines themselves through money and survival – suggest to them an equal money system for all – and they go crazy: ‘no ways.’ Question is why we would not want money and basic needs to be equally accessible to all, so that what remains is for each to live in self honest, self expression, rather than living to earn money…

Self Forgiveness: Self Control and reliance on Science

http://desteni.co.za/forum/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=1001

 I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that self control is dependant on a specific resource of the brain.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that self control can diminish. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from self control.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to accept myself as self control.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am able to ‘fail to control myself’ in the face of temptation.

I forgive myself that I have allowed temptation to control me and have power over me and power of me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that in ‘restraining’ impulses of temptation – I am creating a resistance to temptation and because of the creation of resistance: That which I resist will persist – and thus the temptation actually persist when I restrain and will ‘give into’ the temptation.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I have no power and no control in the face of temptation and all my power and control is dependant on the brain.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from the brain.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that failure actually exists. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that lack actually exists.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that lack and failure only exist of the mind – I do not accept and allow lack and failure – this is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I have limited resources to control myself. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that the limitation of resources only exist of the mind – I am infinitely stable and constant – I do not accept and allow limitation within me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am subject to limitation. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that limitation actually exists.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to actually believe that I am able to run out of resources.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that only the mind is able to run out of resources – life is the infinite expression of who I am within and as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe and take into consideration what scientists have to say because they are apparently more smarter and clever more intellectual – scientists who are the mechanics of the mind – they are of the mind.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that scientist are actually showing me the limitations of the mind and not supporting and assisting me as life within and as oneness and equality as who I am.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that scientists are also of the mind – and that I have allowed myself to be blinded by the belief that they are intellectual, wise, clever and smart because of the knowledge and information they have acquired – and thus must believe every word they say.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that when my brain’s resources run out – my self control ability is able to diminish.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am only able to focus on one thing at a time – and when I do – I am not able to focus on another – because the resources in my brain has apparently run out.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that scientist on earth are the mechanics of the mind – the manifestations of mind consciousness systems as the minds’ attempt to understand and comprehend itself. I am life of oneness and equality – I am understanding – to ‘have to understand something’ is a statement of stupidity of the mind – I am not the mind and I am not stupid – I am understanding of life within and as oneness and equality and I do not need or require knowledge and information of this world of minds to tell me who I am.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that only the mind is able to deplete its own resources. Life as who I am is not able to deplete. I do not accept depletion and I do not allow depletion.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that if I do one thing I cannot do another as efficient and sufficient because of the apparent depletion of the resources in the mind for self control.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be entranced by the knowledge and information of the o’ so wise scientist.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that in separating myself from the scientist – they seem more than me because of their vast amount of knowledge and information of the mind. I live knowledge and information as who I am as life as the living word.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define self control separate from me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to live and apply self control in every moment. I am my directive principle – not the brain. I am my directive principle – not the mind.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to almost believe the knowledge and information of the actual depletion and running out of resources with the statement: that makes sense – now I know and do nothing about it but believe that: Okay, this is how it is and that’s it – very interesting though.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be easily manipulated by knowledge and information of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to blindly believe the knowledge and information of the mind – instead of the living words as one with me as who I am of life within and as oneness and equality. I am sound. I am silence. I am here.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that in merely changing my behaviour – is changing another perception of the mind. I am not behaviour – I am the expression of life within and as oneness and equality which I live and express in every moment of me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that in suppressing emotions and feelings: I am strong and I have courage. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I am the ‘inner workings’ of the brain and I am not subject to the brain unless I accept and allow it within me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that this entire ‘experiment’ / investigation is an example of the mind consciousness system in control of the mind/brain.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be inferior to scientists.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe and think I am inferior to the brain.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think and believe I am inferior to the mind.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think and believe I am inferior and less than knowledge and information separate from me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think and believe I am less than and inferior to thoughts, feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have allowed others, such as scientists to tell me and show me what I am and how I am instead of me standing alone as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have allowed the mind, brain, thoughts, feelings and emotions to tell me who and what I am instead of me living words as one as me as who I am as life within and as oneness and equality. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be directed by the mind, brain, thoughts, feelings and emotions instead of me applying, living and expression self direction in the silence that is me in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be directed by the polarity equations of the mind as: strength and weakness and failure and success.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am able to ‘temporarily’ ‘lose’ control.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that when I ‘lose control’ and ‘give into’ the impulsions of temptations – I have allowed myself to go ‘back into the mind’ and that I as who I am was not here, aware, in and as the moment.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am able to ‘lose’ anything even control.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that when I ‘lose’ something or apparently think and believe that I have ‘lost’ something – I have not lived within and as oneness with that ‘something’ I have or could apparently lose.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that ‘lostness’, ‘losing’, ‘lost’, ‘lose’ only exist of the mind when I am in separation. I am one – therefore – it is impossible to lose anything because everything is here as who I am within and as oneness and equality: Proof – lostness is of the mind of separation.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am able to actually ‘lack’ abilities.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that control is an act. Self control is the expression of me within and as oneness and equality of life. I am source.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that my actions are of the brain when actually it’s of the mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to blame the mind/brain for my actions – instead of me realising that I am accepting and allowing the mind/brain to direct and control me and thus I am individually responsible for my actions.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to take responsibility for myself when I realised that I have allowed myself to ‘fall’ in the face of temptation.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to actually believe that I am able to fall.

I forgive myself that I have allowed ‘falling’ to exist.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that ‘falling’ or ‘to fall’ ‘means’ that I have allowed myself to re-enter the realms of my mind instead of remaining here as every moment of every breath as who I am of life within and as oneness and equality.

Veno