Double life of a ‘Good man’

Yes – every single human is always a ‘good person’, even though this does not match up to what is reported in the media as the actual nature of humanity. All over the world humans are giving into the mind as that which possesses each. For some it is taken as far as becoming a rapist or a murderer. For some it is to beat your wife or hit your child. For others it is to gossip or cheat or steal, or to have harmful judgmental thoughts about yourself or another. Every single human at some point or another gives into their secret mind. We have come to accept that humans are ‘flawed’ and that we are allowed to give into our emotions, feelings and ideas about ourselves and others, because that is simply’ human nature’. We know that within ourselves exist dark nasty thoughts and desires, yet we support ourselves and each other in justifying it – by collectively as society giving permission to things like pornography, alcohol, sexual promiscuity, the lies that go with selling products in the capitalist system, fighting, competing, gossiping, hating, wanting, desiring, denying, taking, comparing, lying, – and the list of ‘human traits’ go on.

We observe each other and ourselves and we justify our actions by not looking at ways to purify humanity as ourselves, but instead we find ways to sell the weakness of man so that everyone can get rich. Of course nobody wants to admit that this is what humanity is all about and have become as the basic functioning and value of ourselves.

As you are able to see if you observe ‘human nature’, is that humans exist within ‘layers’ within society – and all of these layers we have come to accept as ‘normal’, ‘acceptable’ and that there is nothing we can do about. An example of such layers would be the escalation of the mind as personality starting with your average person who exists trapped in patterns and behaviors based on emotions and feelings and fears. This is every single human currently – a personality robot defined and structured according to our addiction to thinking, feeling, emotions and to survive as our ‘personalities’. Each human fights for and competes with others to protect their personalities – believing it is real and believing it is what is best for them. The next layer from there is the person who takes the secret mind thoughts and lives them. Here you have most of society participating in aggression, competition, hate, anger, jealousy, lust, relationships, addictions, entertainment, sport etc. Each thought and inner experience is taken into expression, and then you have a society that we have now – and still it borders on acceptable – because no-one is willing to become self honest and see that what we accept as the inner and outer reality of ‘the human’ is in fact not what is best for all – and is irresponsible. But because the majority accept it – everyone accepts it. That is how it has always been – call it the universal mind as consciousness.

The next layer consist of those in society who take the secret mind thoughts that even the previous level that I mentioned are not willing to express, and they go and live out those thoughts. Such people would be your murders, rapists, religious fanatics, arsonists, fraudsters, gangsters, crime boss’ etc – these are merely a handful of examples – just scan through the internet for ‘world news’ and you will find millions of such people living out their thoughts and inner battles, daily.

What we have done at Desteni since 2007 is show within our research that all of these ‘layers’ as I have simplistically represented them here – all come from one human mind design and functions according to the base programming of all minds as consciousness. Therefore we realized that from the ‘average person’ allowing themselves to have secret mind thoughts about themselves or another to the serial rapist existent within the next layer who takes his secret thoughts into expression – we have one human mind as layers of itself existent within various expressions as various beings – and that even when we accept one aspect of the mind as ‘abusive’ within the ‘average’ person to be lived as your inner reality – but don’t allow the next person to take that abuse into expression – then we have the society that exists now – where we condemn a minority of people but allow the rest to ‘carry on’ . We all claim that it is fine to exists in the mind as our thoughts, feelings, reactions, emotions and hidden desires – but it is wrong for the next person in society to take that into expression and rape, hurt, steal, maim, kill, destroy…

This indicates to me a society that wants to be able to live out its darkest urges and will justify the existence of such expression as normal – but wont allow others to live out their urges. I means let’s be really self honest here. We want to be able to drink, party, fuck, fantasize, abuse, consume, impress, compete, compare, judge, condemn – as a society – but as long as you don’t take it to the extreme measure and kill or rape people. The fact that murder and rape and all forms of abuse exists in our society and the fact that we allow such actions inside ourselves towards ourselves and others – does not even bother people. As long as I can pay someone to fuck them and I can rape a woman in my mind – who can complain? Secretly having sex with another in your mind – as long as it only happens in the mind and -then it is acceptable. But the rapist who expresses what the average male has in his mind and does not give the woman money – he is a bad person and must be locked up.

Reality of it – these are merely layers of the same human behaviors and we have all come to accept it because we are participating in it.

I will now be using a newspaper article to illustrate how society is trapped in the same cycles of bulshit and how we use words to keep ourselves trapped in the acceptance of these layers.

People who read any newspaper or magazine does so from only one starting point – sensationalism which generates energy within the reader as reaction to what you are reading. Society – as I mentioned earlier is addicted to energy which comes from participating in the mind. So lets take a look through this article and identify how the human exist as double standards – some layers of human behavior are acceptable while others are not.

I will place the newspaper article directly (in italics) and within that place my perspective:


“The man – who has been arrested in connection with her murder – has allegedly admitted to police to having kidnapped the 17-year-old while on her way to school in Roodepoort, west of Johannesburg, on Wednesday morning, telling them he did so because he “liked the way she looked”.

In our Society today – Pornography has become an acceptance. The justification I have found used by people who watch porn is

1. ‘god made me this way’

2. ‘it is natural for us to want to have sex’

3. ‘the porn stars want me to watch them, nobody is forcing them to be porn stars’

4. ‘what harm does it do if I watch pornography, its not like I am raping anyone’ And the list goes on.

However no-one considers that to say god made me this way implies that your god is sick/dysfunctional , or you are implying that your god made you with a weakness – an addiction to abusing the physical form so that you may have a nice feeling, and he/she/it did not give you the common sense to realize what you are doing and that maybe you are being ‘tested’ by yourself to reveal whether you are able to stand up to your addictions or are you merely directed by your addictions as an abuser of life on this planet? I have asked many people what they would do if the god or deity or higher force they believed in was to exist as part of the society they have created where you sit and watch porn – would you still accept pornography? No one has been able to answer me on that one.

The second statement ‘it is our nature’ – also directly implies that we know weare being directed by our addictions and that we are no more than that and don’t want to be more than that because quite frankly we don’t want to change. Unless of course a rapist molests our daughter – than it is wrong to participate in the groping and abuse and dishonoring of a female form. Until then we will allow the dishonoring of the female form by adoring celebrities that personify the absolute separation between the existence of beauty versus ugly – to the point where we will abuse people in thought, word and deed for being ugly – while fantasizing about ‘beautiful’ woman to the point of pornography, addiction to masturbating while fantasizing to pictures to of course; the mind that wants to rape a woman because of the specific fantasy it consists of.

The third statement: considering how the capitalist system functions where a majority of youngsters enter the job market just to realize their dreams of having a good life with never ever happen and that they will have to join the rest of the lower middle class society who work at Walmart or MacDonald’s – is it really so surprising that people become Porn Stars, Drug peddlers, fraudsters? If a porn star was to openly admit that the only reason why she does this is for the money and that she really hates it – men would not find her sexy – they want her to be pleasant about the whole thing and the picture she portrays must be that of ‘I love sex’ and ‘I love to please men’ – so obviously the reality of why woman and men go into porn, is never mentioned – because of the picture that is presented as part of the fantasy of porn. Men really believe that all those woman secretly desire the man watching them and want him to molest them with his eyes. That is the reality of the mind that watches porn and the lie that exists behind why and how pornography exists. No-one wants a nagging porn star – she will not last a day. The rest of them who say ‘I do it not for the money, but because I looove sex’ – yes in our society where girls are taught and brainwashed from young that they are in a beauty system where their self validation is dependent on what approval they get from others and how much others give them value – obviously you will have some woman brainwashed enough to desire approval through their ‘beauty’ so much that they will step over the line and through becoming the most desired image for men – find orgasmic pleasure . If you really observed the symbolic that happen during sex – you will find that the ultimate pleasure experienced during sex combined with the desire to be desired by another – leads to ‘the most intense orgasms’. Again this is what pornography symbolically stimulates in people – if a woman is really fucked by a man, she must be absolutely desirable and the man must be the king – this is the symbolic on which the fantasy is built and is the reason why men and woman watch porn and also why someone would become a porn star.

So getting back to the young woman who would want to become a porn star – Again here we can use the concept of the ‘layers’ in our society, which ultimately represent the layers of the mind as what each person becomes as their ‘personality’. All woman are trained and subjected to the idea of appearances, beauty, self value through the eyes of men from a very young age. How many of us only take that to the ‘first layer’ where we put on make up and wear nice clothes to get approval from others? How many take it to the next level and go for weekly hair appointments, manicures, pedicures, wear only the latest trends and only socialize in groups of ‘beautiful people’? How many then take it to the next level and seek careers where they are acknowledged and paid for their appearances – models, porn stars, celebrities? So again we have layers of acceptance in our society. A lot of people for example will judge the porn star but within ourselves we allow the existence of a porn star who will sell ourselves to males and other females just to experience good feelings from watching them us as ‘beautiful’. So wearing makeup, programming your behavior, wearing specific clothes to get a reaction from people – is that really so different than becoming a porn star? Observe the actual layers that this construct creates within – which then becomes our societal preferences – based on what it is that we really accept.

We then go on to lie about what we accept to save our arses in front of a god – while the real secret mind stuff exists which everyone in society gives permission to and actually allows within ourselves. The funny thing about what really goes on inside of people is that a majority of people beLIEve in a god, or some spiritual force that watched over them – yet they actually believe that their god cannot see into their minds and does not see the secret things we do? I mean is your god all knowing or selective and dumb? And while realizing obviously -using basic common sense that your god sees everything you do in your mind and in action – do you reeeally think that he/she/it allows you to do and think what you do because he/she/it loves you and wants you to have good time/free will? I mean do we not for a minute contemplate that perhaps our god(s) do nothing because he/she/it wants us to do something and become the image and likeness of god as being and living what is best for all? What else would be the point of a god/deity/higher force if all it does is sit and watch while humans allow abuse in their minds and in their world? Usually the response from religious people to this is – in the afterlife I will be saved…..

No – I do not accept the afterlife excuse. That is the excuse used by people who don’t want to take self responsibility for what is HERE, for what we are creating now in this physical reality. To speak of an afterlife you have never even confirmed for yourself to be able to abdicate self responsibility is according to our own society equal to the actions of a madman, yet again here we double standards – society calls some people ‘crazy’ yet it is ok for everyone to carry on within themselves participating in secret thoughts and secret lives – because an invisible god is watching over us, will forgive us and once in the ‘afterlife’ you will be forgiven and free from – and here we have the catch 22 situation – free from this abusive planet????. So while on this planet all get to contribute to and allow the abuse while waiting for the afterlife where we are free from this pesky abusive world? The human mind is most schizophrenic at times.

“A shocked neighbour described the blond Afrikaans-speaking man, who is employed at an industrial company in Roodepoort, as “normal” and “such a good person”. “He was always friendly, I can’t believe it. Nobody can believe it. He didn’t drink, he didn’t smoke,” the neighbour said. “He was always friendly and always neat. He was such a good person. That’s why it’s such a shock.”

So what people are saying here is that people who are good and who a neat and friendly should not have secrets and participate in secret thoughts that harm themselves and the rest of society? If you observe your inner reality, the inner reality of those around you and that which we allow as our society – you will see that being neatly dressed, friendly and a ‘good person’, means nothing – and is in fact the mask that is worn by society so that we can live out our desires without being bothered. On the point of drinking and smoking – do the people who said this even realize the double standards they are using? They are implying that bad people would be the ones who smoke and drink – but in our society the majority of people consume alcohol, recreational dugs and smoke??? In fact when I tell people I don’t drink – the reactions I get are that of -‘your such a stiff man’, implying that I am weird and ‘different’ for not wanting to drink, because drinking is ‘fun’. Drinking alcohol allows the mind to let go of its inhibitions – again proving that humanity are directed by secret mind desires and fear of being self responsible – or else we would not need alcohol to relax now would we? In this article the information of the rapist not drinking and smoking is used to stimulating an emotional reaction in the reader, because obviously it does not come from people realizing that substance abuse exists to cover up or enhance self-dishonesty.

“But this is the same man whom police suspect to be the “Sunday Rapist” linked to the brutal rape of 10 teenage girls in Gauteng and North West over the past three years. What his neighbours also do not know is that the suspect is a convicted sex offender who did four hours of community service every Sunday – his only punishment after a court found him guilty of sexual assault in 2007. He was slapped with a three-year suspended sentence and ordered to do an unspecified number of community service hours. Yesterday, Detective Peet du Toit told how he managed to persuade the suspect to hand himself over to police less than 24 hours after De Waal was kidnapped on her way to school, allegedly raped, strangled and her body set alight on a Magaliesberg farm. The suspect was already “a person of interest” to the detective, who had been on the trail of the Sunday Rapist since October last year. He said he called the man’s brother and asked him to convince his sibling to call him urgently. “I asked his brother to convince him [the suspect] to phone me before it was too late,” said Du Toit. The suspect eventually called him at 4am yesterday. “It took me a lot of convincing and negotiating to get him to drive to a police station,” said Du Toit. The experienced investigator, who is attached to the Krugersdorp Family Violence, Child Protection and Sexual Offences unit, told the man on the phone: “Think of the community and your family . It is in your best interest to hand yourself over.” He finally handed himself over at the Margate police station on the KwaZulu-Natal South Coast, 726km from home, at 5am yesterday. He was brought back to Gauteng under heavy police guard and will remain in custody until he appears in the Krugersdorp Magistrate’s Court on Monday on charges including two counts of murder and “various charges of kidnapping, rape and sexual assault”, said Du Toit. He said there were still other charges that needed to be finalised. At a press conference yesterday, Gauteng’s acting police commissioner, Major-General Nobesuthu Masiye, said the suspect had confessed that “he had indeed kidnapped the girl [De Waal]”. The Sunday Rapist is also wanted in connection with the murder of Lazanne Farmer, a 14-year-old Pretoria West girl whose mother, Anna, said yesterday she hoped police had finally caught her daughter’s killer. She said she desperately wished to come face to face with him “so that I can I ask him why he killed my daughter, and whether she had said or done something nasty to him to deserve to be killed”. The section head of the South African Police Service’s investigative psychology unit, Dr Gérard Labuschagne, said the case that shocked the country this week was just the tip of the iceberg. “We have hundreds of serial rapists running around the country,” he said, adding that if co-ordinated police task teams were formed to hunt them down, they would “catch them within a couple of weeks”. It is believed the Sunday Rapist has been on the prowl in Pretoria, Rustenburg, Potchefstroom, Vanderbijlpark, Carletonville and Krugersdorp since 2008. Labuschagne said it was “very rare” for serial rapists to hand themselves over. There was a sombre mood outside Hoërskool Die Burger, where De Waal was a Grade 11 pupil, yesterday. Two bouquets of flowers placed on the premises in her memory told the whole story. Her schoolmates were not taking it well, according to a school counsellor, who declined to be named.The girls, especially, feel really bad,” she said.”

The schoolgirls are all people who participate daily in the beauty system, comparison, jealousy, the doting of celebrities – so again if we were to consider and educate ourselves and our children in the actuality of the layers of society which exist as the layers of the mind of the individual – we would see that to be shocked at the actions of a rapist who physically acted on his desires – is not taking self responsibility for the system which they themselves give permission to each day – which is the abuse of the female form as a picture to be used for self gratification.

Stop the abuse of life within self and then we stop the abuse in society – because only then do we even begin to see that everything currently exists based on the staring point of the human as the mind. It all ‘to place it in basic terms’ comes from and exists in the human mind firstly. It all exist around and from the basic foundation points that all have come to accept as ‘human nature’ and ‘thought’ and ‘consciousness’.’So – what we accept within ourselves already now exists in it most extreme versions within the world. Everyone sees it – however most claim they are not able to do the basic math’s and see that everything inside self also exists in another – in some form and according to some intensity of itself, according to whom that person accepts themselves to be through the acceptance of ‘my mind’.

“Parent Annelize Thomson, whose daughter is also in Grade 11, said she feared for her child’s safety. Thomson said her child also walks to school and that she would never allow her to walk the 1.5km distance again. ”Whatever it takes, we’re going to come and fetch her,” she said.”

Again, only once something happens to those close to us, do humans wake up for a moment and acknowledge that something is wrong – but only if it affects those born from the same family as you and your closest friends. Every day millions of beings starve and are abused in various forms within the existing capitalist system. We see it all around us, in the news, on the internet, even in our own cities – yet we don’t equate that the society we have – is and has always been created by ourselves – and no devil or god is to blame. Nobody is doing this to us. We are creating layers of abuse, individually and together, because all agreed to the accepted nature of man and to the secret hidden realities within each one’s mind.

I have used the example of sex/porn and masturbation to illustrate the comparison between sexual abuse and accepted sexual abuse in society. Obviously this example I used as ‘layers’ of accepted behavior exist in all forms of society, not just with regards to the rapist, pornographer, sex addict.

Articles that further expand on this article with regards to Pornography/Sex/Masturbation:

Interviews from the Farm 58: Judgment Day – Every Day

Interviews from the Farm 71: Illusionists use Love with Great Effect

Sex Addiction 101

Robert Monroe – Technological Mind Systems

Jack – The Power of Money

Interesting research and perspectives on the internet with regards to Pornography/Sex addiction:


People Facing themselves within Pornography/Masturbation/Sex Addictions:

Self deliverance from pornography and masturbation

Darryl’s vlog – Pornography

The Ultimate Proof that Psychiatry is Flawed

Exposing Secrets 1 Masturbation

Exposing Secrets  2 Masturbation & Pornography

Exposing Secrets 3 Sex

The Free Speech Effect

How I got to Desteni

Markus M Forgiveness Writings

Agreement?: A True Agreement is an Agreement with Self First

SF on Family, Abuse, Bad Ass

josh’s blog

Rape-Deconstructing the Rape Within Myself

I was limited and I didn’t know

Value within sex

Walking through the Addiction to Pornography

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