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A Doomsday Activist – Life Review

ImageOriginal interview: http://eqafe.com/i/arosouw-life-review-a-doomsday-activist

What I saw within my own life experience listening to this Interdimensional being, was the point of participating and creating a life for myself in the safe space of my mind, when I could not create a safe world for myself in the external world. Leaving school I became aware that for most adults, life becomes about working 9-5, paying bills and simply learning to survive. I did not have this mind set as a desire for a life for myself. I could not see myself living the same religion, laws and life choices contently and thus firstly for many years simply allowed myself to sink into adult depression.

What I started noticing within myself was that in my mind, in my thoughts, in the secret space within my thinking I could change how I viewed myself and others, the world and our whole reason for exiting. This was my domain where nobody could tell me differently. So I started allowing thoughts to come up explaining to me concepts around who I am and that I am actually better than what was out there in the world. This became – one could say a polarity balancing act between the nasty thoughts that brought up panic and fear in relation to me not fitting into the world, where I would immediately have the self righteous, self serving thoughts start emerging that would justify why that person or world situation is wrong and I am right. In my mind, I noticed that one could create a reality for oneself where you are safe. At some point I also connected myself to spirituality whereby I could really fuel the ideas and beliefs that I am special, different and have a specific path to walk. Only years later, obviously through introspection into those thoughts patterns – did I realize that as a young child I did not originally have these mental planning and coping structures – this only developed as my ego developed – where I was reacting to my world and others. Each time I landed in more stressful life situations such as an abusive relationship or a stressful works scenario this mind system would adapt my thinking to allow for me to cope with what I was experiencing. In the end – similar to this doomsdayprophet in the interview – I had created a vaste network of ideas, religious concepts, ental system and rules according to which I would life in my mind and be a good, appreciated person – despite the physical and figurative ‘beating’ I took from the outside world.

Therefore looking back now – I see and realize that even though if one was to ask me ‘why do I belong to this specific religion’ I would give you a very deep, meaningful answer – however the thoughts that moved first as the reality of what I was experiencing was ‘because nobody else will accept me’ or ‘well how else will I be special?’

These were difficult aspects of myself to face – because eventually I looked at this mind protection system throughout all aspects of my life – how in relationships, friendships and work I would try and live out a fantasy based on the ideals that allowed me to feel good about myself. Everybody does this – this is why we create friendships with people that are similar to us or make us feel good, and seek professions/qualifications that boost our self worth – it all comes down to wanting to serve the mind-energy of feeling good -instead of realising the simplistically that myself and each one of us are already here in the physical, equal to the physical and do not have to ‘prove’ our existence to anything, especially not the physical reality. We only do this as part of a world that we have come to accept where we compete in our mind realities with each other as if they are real.

The crazy mother

Imagehttp://eqafe.com/i/arosouw-life-review-the-crazy-mother

This Interdimensional being explains how her Life started out pretty much going according to plan, even when she fell pregnant after a one night stand – the solutionand the way that her and her sexual partner decided to get married and build a life together – was simplistically ideal. Throughout her life she followed the guidance of her parents and always used the technique of planning and setting of guidelines to bring one to your ‘ideal’ goals.

Her and her partner developed an intimate relationship even though they had been ‘thrown together after a night of passion. Life seemed to be on track, until she was faced with the unpredictable, the uncertain. She was faced with a wall in her mind and in the end due to one specific mind set – and inability to change her views and outlook on how to approach Life and what to expect from oneself, she basically drove herself insane as her relationship with her children went from concern to an obsession.

What stands out about this interview is how only on her death bed could she listen and communicate, as she was letting go of her Life. Here she shares valuable insights for us, on practical things to consider for ones life, on practical considerations when dealing with ‘differences’ and to not allow set rules and beliefs about how life is to be lived, push oneself and ones family into fear.

Fewer Religious people in South Africa – proof that Money is God?

“Johannesburg – The number of people in South Africa who consider themselves religious has dropped by 19%, an international survey revealed on Friday.
According to the latest polls released by the Win-Gallup International Religiosity and Atheism Index, which measures global self-perceptions on belief, religious South Africans dropped from 83% in 2005 to 64% in 2012.
The survey, conducted during November 2011 and January 2012, was based on interviews with 52 000 men and women from 57 countries in five continents.

South Africa was fifth behind Vietnam which dropped by 23%, Ireland, 22%, Switzerland, 21%, and France 21%.

According to the survey, 28% of South Africans do not consider themselves religious, 4% were convinced they were atheists, and 5% did not respond to questions.

The survey also indicated that globally the number of people claiming to be religious dropped by 9%, while atheism rose by 3%.

Ghana was the most religious country in the world with 96%, followed by Nigeria with 93%.

China had 47% of citizens claiming to be atheists, followed by Japan with 31% and the Czech Republic with 30%.

The survey further indicated that worldwide people in the bottom income groups were 17% more religious than those in the top income groups.

The low income group accounted for 66% of religious people and the high income groups accounted for 49%.”
From the above newspaper article and from the growing global changes within the world – towards and in relation to religion, we are starting to see that people are in fact realizing for themselves slowly but surely that whether we belong to a religion or not you still die, get hurt/ill, are dependent on money and are subject to the same laws, problems and concerns as the rest of the human population. It has taken a while, but here according to these statistics – we are starting to see a change. People are starting to use basic common sense to look beyond their fears of a god, or fear of some wrath being bestowed upon them for asking the questions – and they are actually daring to ask the questions and make the statements that all humans have feared making since the dawn of religion – questions such as ‘why do I belong to a religion, what difference does it make,’ ‘if there is a god, why does he really allow suffering and why would I believe in a god who has excuses for the suffering that people and animals have to endure on this planet?’ These were some of the questions that I asked many years ago, as I started questioning why I would continue to devote my life, time and energy into a god or religion, if my world around me proved to me, that no matter what theories, philosophies or even knowledge from books I could summon up in any given moment to justify WHY I could believe in a God – it just did not make any more sense than believing in the tooth fairy.

Somewhere along the line – a man walked the earth, which by his own design and programming could do amazing things. He represented the POTENTIAL future of mankind –an example if you may, of what is possible not if we worship outside of ourselves and use books as knowledge to convince others of our righteousness, but if we actually walk the talk – of self-perfection of man. Jesus said many wise things -none of which is lived and practiced by mankind today – YET what happened was the church used the coming of Jesus and the unanswered questions, to create religion. Which since then has been the limitation of mankind – even though it is proclaimed by the religious to be the answer to the human within our existence. All that we have seen since the dawn of religion – is the fact that people wrote books in the names of beings like jesus, and from these books conveniently we have seen the advent of the multi million dollar industry called religion. Not one human has actually lived the words of people like Jesus, and we know this is true because of the state of the world. So – we have the original words spoken by jesus, changed into the words we read in the bible – which once read – manifests the reader into an apathetic, nonplussed, consuming human consisting of a consciousness which is only concerned with its own well being, survival, and happiness. So somewhere along the line – we as humans have become what we are now – as that which we see in the world as the actions of man – which is the outflow of what exists within the minds of man. ALL humans exist like this – so before your mind goes ‘not me surely – I am a christian’ – stop for a moment and look into your own thoughts which just like your neighbor is about jealousy, comparison, fear, greed, addiction, to mention but a few of the millions of energetic moments that come up as thoughts that drive all humans all day into living action. And I am not saying that we as humans are necessarily in all ways ‘to blame’ for all our experiences – as we struggle to survive in the system. What I am saying is that not only have we accepted the world systems as they are – because they give us what we want and need – but we have also become dependent on them for our basic survival and thus are subject to the system. For example – we have already accepted capitalism as it is and the value systems from which it functions -and now we are stuck with capitalism no matter how much we hate having to go to our jobs each day or in how much fear we are every day whether we will be able to survive and provide for our children. So – fascinatingly enough you will notice that the current younger generations are more and more giving into things such as depression, emo-ism and substance abuse – as the current generations see that it is frivolous to also, like our parents have to graduate from high school and go and work in the system for the rest of your life, earning a basic income from all your sweat and tears, just to wait to die – just like the generations before us. We see the outflow of the children realizing they do not want to have to deal with what our parents did – so more and more we are seeing children trying to rebel and resist the inevitability of what they will have to do to live in this world. We are also seeing the evolution of the mind as ‘Crystal children’ and ‘Indigo Children’ as the newer generations are ‘mentally’ preparing themselves to resists the system, but in complete separation by becoming Ligtworkers/positive thinkerswho have NO practical insight to stop and change the systems that are herebut are programmed and designed as systems that talk a lot about world change and who are walking, talking feeling systems – they will love everything and radiate goodness – just don’t expect them to drop the act and change the world.

So – in essence we are seeing many new forms of resistance, adaptation and ways in which people are trying to escape from what is here. As I mentioned above some with manifest themselves into balls of light and love –to not have to stand knee deep in the shit and have to really see, realize and understand the extent to which we have manifested this world and the suffering that is experienced by a majority within the system. Some will become Emo and again – the opposite polarity will be presented of the dark, misunderstood beings who resists everything like hell, wear dark clothing, listening to dark music etc, etc – all attempts to train their own mind to ignore the real problem and to make sure others don’t ask of them to assist in taking responsibility for what we have already created. Then you have your alcohol and drug use on the rise and things like entertainment, are becoming more extreme and mind numbing – all ways we as humans design to keep us distracted from this painful ‘reality’ we have created.

BUT – no one is standing up to walk the journey that is required of all of us together – to change what is here. Changing what is here will require practical changes within the consideration of what is best for all – and this must be directly managed, decided and lived by all of humanity – or else we will always see this chaotic back and forth scenarios of a handful of human trying to change the world, while the rest only try and survive. If we all prepare the way for change together, and we all implement the change together – then there will be change as long as we change ourselves – so that the past as what we were when we allowed this mess – is not the determining factor – of what will recreate the future. If you watch documentaries like ‘The Trap’, ‘The Century of the Self‘ and Psywar‘, you will get an understanding of how revolutions have always played out the same way, for example – where power was only shifted from one group to the next by using the humans who want to see a change but are not really willing to be the change, and expect governments to change the people for the people – while the governments use the revolutions to gain power. So no-body can blame the governments as they exist, because the human has not yet taken full self responsibility for ourselves.

This brings me back to my original point above – where the point that is not understood by any person claiming to want to change the world – is the point of SELF within it all. Change wants to be seen by those who claim to ‘want change’ as again making the individual happy. Therefore – for example – if one addresses the issue of the current money system and one highlights the abuse that is allowed so that the money system as the value within which it exists can function – then even your ‘good-hearted’ spiritualist and new age workers and activists will fall down on the floor and have a fit. You do not dare touch people’s money, you do not dare to ask people to consider what would be self responsibility – because if one has a secret life you want to live, which essentially consists of harming others – then of course one would not be up for stopping participation in anything abusive and the re-evaluation of our world systems and how they function. For example, one would ask yourself the question – ‘does it really bother me to see all these millions of beings starving and being abused daily in the name of money and entertainment – or does it only bother me as much as you wont dare take a way what I like and want in life? If it means giving up what ‘I want’ then sorry the suffering of millions may continue.’ This is where people confused the idea of an existence of a god – with ‘man can do anything’.
So back to my original point about people stopping the participation in religion. Yes –we are seeing more and more people ask the question of why they should belong to a religion. This we are seeing more and more as people realize that it is not God who decides who eats and who starved – it is man. It is not God who decides who will or will not be abused by another – it is in fact the relationships and actions and decisions existent within and between humans – and it is humanity who decides on a day to day basis who we will become, what we will do and within that what we accept and allow. So people are realizing that just like the tooth fairy, God does not actually exist and that perhaps there is more to our existence here on earth, than what has been written in books by corrupt power hungry people thousands of years ago.

Within Humanity we tend to laugh at how gullible humanity is. We tend to scoff at the thousands of stories we hear in our lifetime, at the way in which humans deceive each other. Usually we are the ones in the story being deceived. We never stop though to question why we would actually continue giving permission to any world system in which it has become customary to lie, cheat and deceive. We note to others and ourselves how it pains us that we lie, cheat and deceive others – yet if asked ‘don’t you want to change this so it does not ever have to happen again’ – people respond with the question ‘ does that mean I have to change so that I don’t lie, cheat or deceive’ and when the answer is ‘yes’ – then people choose to keep everything the same, while still wanting, hoping and praying that other people by their own violation will stop ‘lying, cheating and deceiving’ – interesting dichotomy isn’t it?

Further Reading Support:

Mind Possession: Mother Kills her children out of fear of losing them

Mind Possession: Mother Kills her children out of fear of losing them.

2012 Gender differences and Violent crimes

(Excerpt taken from: Contemporary Criminological Issues, Department of Criminology, University of South Africa, 2009)

“Research (Bartol & Bartol 2008:380) cites that women are more likely to perceive aggression as a breakdown of self-management strategies than men are. To women,aggressive behaviour represents a personal failure to hold onto standards of behaviour which they set for themselves, and as a result they see aggression and violent behaviour in a negative light. Men on the other hand are more likely to perceive aggressive behaviour as a means of dominance and imposing control over others; therefore, they see violence and
aggression in a more positive light.”

Aggression, female submission and other traits within the human design, which are seen as normal and acceptable within our society, simply because they exist within us, are not necessarily what is best for us. If you observe the world you will notice that we allow human traits and designs to direct us, instead of realizing that we are the directive principle and do not have to accept our limitations as who we have become as our pre-programmed designs.

Within the Desteni I Process we work with stopping pre-programmed designs, as they exist from the starting point of abuse towards ourselves and others. Within the courses we find the designs behind characteristics such as ‘aggression’, ‘fear’, ‘ego’ etc., and we defuse the design through writing tools, self-forgiveness and self correction, within self responsibility. We have found for ourselves that we are not dependent on these human designs to live here in the physical as effective human beings. These designs create conflict within people, which – as you can observe in the news -create conflict within our world in how we live and treat each other.

We have walked the Desteni I Process for many years already and have successfully stopped such design characteristics which serve no practical purpose for self to live here in the physical reality, as a functional, self confident, self appreciative individual.

Within the Desteni I process I have walked through my pre-programmed design of Depression, Aggression and Anxiety, therefore I understand firstly how difficult it is to start applying oneself within the tools, however I have seen my own transformation as well as the transformation of the students participating in the courses. Each person is assigned a buddy, who supports them through their lessons and a mother buddy who oversees their progress through the courses, while at the same time assisting in the development of the necessary self-support skills, to utilize the lesson material within all areas of your life.

DesteniIProcess testimonials:

Self Support to Push Through Writing and Procrastination Backchat

stoppingjoekou.blogspot.com/2012/03/self-support-to-push-through-writing.html

Listen to The Body– How to Sort Out Acne

http://fidelisspies.blogspot.com/2011/06/listen-to-body-how-to-sort-out-acne.html

3 Years without Drugs

http://christophedegroote.wordpress.com/2011/05/29/3-years-without-drugs/

Writing as Self Support – My Fingers have a mind of their Own.

http://andrewgablehere.wordpress.com/2011/12/29/writing-as-self-support-my-fingers-have-a-mind-of-their-own/

How to Overcome Fear of Spiders

Giving up sugar

http://iamruben.blogspot.com/2011/05/giving-up-sugar.html

Writing Oneself to Freedom!

http://jozienfokkert.wordpress.com/2011/06/13/writing-oneself-to-freedom/

2012: “I forgive myself… I forgive myself…”

http://equalitywalk.blogspot.com/2012/03/2012-i-forgive-myself-i-forgive-myself.html

For more blogs and videos from the Desteni I Process members: http://desteni.org/income-plan-recruiters/page:2

http://desteniiprocess.com/

Demonology Forum Perspective: Get to the Core Issue

Demonology Forum Perspective: Get to the Core Issue

Original Post: http://demonology.co.za/forum/viewtopic.php?f=4&t=715&p=1324#p1324

When I faced the point of ‘deliberately sleep in so that I can reduce the amount of time I must be awake because when I am awake I must be with myself and face myself’ – I realized that unless i want to remain the same person for the rest of my life as this pattern I am allowing, I must make a definitive change by no longer accepting the ‘patterns’ which were living expressions of myself that were not serving me. Thus I had a choice which was to continue as I was, battling and fighting with myself for the next 30+ years or I bring the inevitability of change here now and stand up within the point NOW. Therefore within choice i realized… I had no choice.

So, the next question is does one want to change. Here I suggest go to the core point around which all these patterns ‘circle’. If you observe these words: “I don’t care” – you will notice that this is one of the primary comparison points within yourself. So observe why it is that you don’t care about yourself. Without addressing these ‘core’ points around which the other patterns circle as ‘outflows’ of the original allowance – you will find that ones SF and SCS will not stand the test of time, because you are still holding onto the point of I don’t care about myself.

I suggest for a moment to simply focus on this point in detail. Write it out within specificity, look at all the layers back in time to the age that this point first started and then follow the time line through your life, where through the years you participated in and ‘added’ layers to the original point. Show in your writings for example how the point of I don’t care ‘mutated from one simple reaction or an acceptance about self into what it is now. How did the point change, who was involved, what justifications throughout the years were used to ‘fuel’ this pattern to where it is now etc…

Demonology Forum Support: Trapping Myself

Original post: http://demonology.co.za/forum/viewtopic.php?f=4&t=715&p=1315#p1315

I suggest also start keeping a backchat diary – which you post here. This will allow you to write out your daily patterns within backchat – which will allow you to directly see where and how to ‘fine tune your self corrective actions’ or where your self forgiveness was not specific enough.

An example of an effective backchat diary:

day 1: 26 August 2011

I was getting redy to sit down at the computer to start with project A. A thought comes up – why dont you rather let someone else do it because you dont have enough experience. I looked at this point – and realised that two days ago I had already done self forgiveness on ‘giving up’.

What happened next was that I felt this sinking experience in my stomach, that I was lying to myself and others by participating – and that even though I had applied SF on giving up – the reality is that I have not applied the tools that is covered in the material within project A – therefore I should rather back off and let someone ‘reliable do it.

I then decided to not complete the project based on this principle – therefore had decided my SF was not valid.

This is an example of how one identifies a backchat pattern, applies SF – but again allows a new pattern of backchat to direct one into not applying the original Self forgiveness and self-corrective statements.

Now one writes a – one could say ‘report’ on the above backchat pattern:

Instead of following through on the SF and SCS already applied by walking the self correction of ‘starting and completing project A’ I allowed myself to stop and I allowed myself to manipulate me with new backchat into the original point of giving up.

Therefore today’s focus is on applying SF on the allowances, as well as following through on the new pattern instead of the self correction. then I apply the self correction on this pattern by ‘starting and completing project A.

1. Therefore one has identified the new pattern (which is the old pattern slightly changed)

2. The justifications used.

3. When during the Self correction did you stop and what did you change to be able to go 4. into the new pattern- this would be a new thought that could either be the justification, a promise, a threat, a delay, a discomfort etc.

4. What Self Forgiveness Statements were not effective – here you go through the SF written out the first time and you observe how your decisions this time indicate which statements did not yet support the actuality of what you were doing. For example let us say that the first time you write SF such as:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself to other people who I am participating in within project A

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself to other people who I am participating in within project A, because I believe that they understand the material better.

When you are in the pattern again and the ‘new thought’ that comes up is ‘but you know someone who works on project A should also be able to fluently explain the material.

This is now a ‘new’ version of the backchat – used by the mind (as yourself) in an attempt to stop you from participating. Therefore you would identify that the self forgiveness above was not specific enough because you also believe that people should understand the material but also fluently explain the words.  You will now write down what SF was not specific enough according to the new events.

Now you identify in the same way what self corrective statements were not effective enough. For example if the first time you applied SF and SCS you wrote:

‘when I want to walk away from a project, I stop, I breath, I stop any and all thoughts – and I continue focusing on the project by remaining where I am and continuing with the practical steps to complete the project.

Now in this report you have realized that you did not follow through on the self-corrective statements because you did in fact find a reason, get up, walk away and not start and complete project A. So, now you will write down that sentence under: self corrective statements that were not effective.  As you did above for the Self Forgiveness you will now write out new self corrective statements for the new self forgiveness additions as well as reconfirming the self forgiveness statements not walked the first time.

Remember this is not a punishment – but instead a direct, clear way of aligning oneself to the actual points that require your participation to change.

By writing out the entire event, the decisions made, the justifications/excuses, the SF and self corrective statements not lived and the new SF/SCS/self correction to be walked  – one is clearly mapping the way and not allowing any confusion about what it is that one allows or what is to be applied within Self-Correction.